Sweet Ward by Lila Younger

Can you ever choose who you fall for?
I know what you’re thinking. Here I am, eighteen, newly graduated, the world at my feet. I should be living it up. Right?
Partying in Europe, spending summers on yachts, that kind of thing.
So what am I doing going back home… to nothing?
Well, not quite nothing.
Because there’s someone I’ve always wanted, but never could have.
Someone who was meant to protect me, to guard me and keep me safe.
Oh he’s kept me safe all right.
I’ve never drank, never messed around with a boy.
All so that maybe, I could give him the gift of my first.
Now all I have to do is get his attention.