Recoil by Evelyn Drake

Detective Tobias Sohbier spent his childhood between several foster homes, and the only time he found peace was when he fell in love with one of his foster brothers. It didn’t last. His brother died, and Tobias went off the rails until he finally turned his life around. Now he’s a homicide detective, and finds vengeance his own way. He’s still broken, but the job hides it well.

Kyle Rivers is a bouncer on the run from his past. When his parents found out he’d fallen in love with the kid they took in, they kicked Tobias out and condemned Kyle to a living hell, trapped in his own basement while they tried to “fix” him. They told him Tobias was dead. They kept Kyle like a dirty secret. Now that he’s free, he’s found that Tobias is alive… But he doesn’t know how to reach out.

A murder at Kyle’s club brings them together, and as the body count racks up, so does Tobias’ guilt and grief. Kyle, meanwhile, can’t deal with the truth that all the conversion therapy in the world, all the women he’s slept with, didn’t change who he really is. Tobias is his first and only love.
If only he weren’t the prime suspect in Tobias’ investigation…