Pretty Little Monster by Z.S. Storm

Ollie:
It started with a curiosity. I watched him, followed him around, wondered why he did the things he did. He just looked so heartbroken all the time.
Then he moved away, and I distracted myself with other stuff. Because why would my dad’s best friend notice me? The boy he used to babysit and who wasn’t even allowed to buy his own drink yet.
But one crazy day, things changed between us. He did look at me differently. And my desire for him turned into an obsession. That was when I decided that Leo was mine, and he wasn’t allowed to tell me otherwise. It was incredible, the way he calmed the storm inside me without even knowing it. His love was addictive, and I became a junkie.
But the monster messed it all up. It made me do something really bad. Everything turned into a fucking nightmare and Leo thought it was all my fault.
I didn’t know how to make him understand that it wasn’t. And I couldn’t handle the pain anymore. It was too hard…fighting the monster all the time.
Letting it destroy me was easier.
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Note: This is a dark, agegap MM romance and contains heavy themes and triggers. Content warning for graphic descriptions of self-harm, assault, murder, recurring theme of mental illness, ow/om scenes, homophobic slurs, misogynistic language, mentions of rape, age play, dub con, younger MC is still in high school (17) when story begins.

Read at your own risk.