Outside Looking In by A.J. Truman

Trust fund kid Nathan learned years ago that he’s patently unlovable. He dulls his loneliness with casual sex, acid wit, and lots of booze. That way, no one else can abandon him like his mother, or ignore him like his father. Fresh out of yet another stint at rehab, Nathan stumbles onto a clue that leads him to his late mother’s whereabouts. His search takes him halfway around the world to New Zealand to solve the mystery of why she left–and connect him to the family he never knew existed.

Liam would rather deal with sheep than people. After catching his girlfriend and BFF cheating, he moves back to his family’s farm to connect with his roots and help his widower brother raise his kids. His other brothers want him to sell the farm so they can all make a big profit, but Liam needs one more year to prove he can succeed. When a handsome Brit wanders onto his field in the middle of the night claiming to be the farmhand he advertised for, Liam is suspicious, but he can’t make it through lambing season by himself.

As Liam helps Nathan transform from Posh Spice to Old Macdonald, they realize they’re the perfect salve for each other’s tattered souls. But the longer Nathan holds off on telling the truth of what brought him to New Zealand, the harder it becomes for him to come clean. Because if he admits who he really is, it could shatter not only Liam’s family–but Nathan’s one true shot at love.