Lust & Longing by E.M. Denning

Twenty years ago, Noah fell in love with his best friend, Ian Osborn.
Love is a messy and complicated emotion. First love especially.
Unfortunately for Noah Davis, it doesn’t get easier as he gets older.

Noah lost Ian years ago, when life took them in different directions. Not knowing how to let go, he relied on the friends he made while living in the city. His friends helped pull him out of his despair, but it was at a club where he found himself.
He threw himself into his new identity. Being a Dom gave him the control he desperately needed and helped him put the pieces of himself back together.
But time changes things. Noah left the club scene behind years ago. He’s back home in Silver Springs and suddenly Ian Osborn, the one who got away, is there, too.
Love isn’t easier the second time around. Noah and Ian must reconcile who they used to be with the men they are now, and it won’t be easy, but nothing worth having ever is.