Forbidden Instinct by Noah Harris

I’m living the life I’ve always wanted. The only thing holding me back is something I’ve kept hidden for so long I barely understand it anymore.

Kieran
I’ve worked hard to get to the top, and now that I have the life and career I want, nothing is going to stand in my way. Becoming the golden child in an up-and-coming legal firm is no small feat, and I’ve got my sights set on the future.
Unfortunately my bosses have other ideas. They’ve been watching me more closely than I realized. I know they have my best intentions at heart, but they’re interrupting my plans. The company I work for makes sure their employees take care of themselves. After a few failed attempts at stress management, they’re packing me off to a retreat specializing in difficult cases. If I want to keep my job, I have to go.
I was expecting a few weeks of shallow introspection and meditation. What I didn’t expect was the same loneliness and isolation as I felt in the real world, or that I would make a friend like Cole.

Cole
Kieran doesn’t know the retreat I work for is much more than talking about feelings. Our kind of healing reaches back in time, digging out long-buried secrets. When the truth comes out, the change he discovers will cause him to reevaluate his entire life.
Torn between the world he’s forged for himself, and the one he’s found in Cole’s arms, Kieran will have to make the hardest choice of his life, or risk losing everything. Will he be able to step up to the challenge?