December Rain by A.L. Goulden

Life is chaotic.
Monica Waters tries to choose the right path. She wants to be the devoted wife who stays to make it work. But the heart is not an organ capable of replenishing itself once it’s torn in two. So when Quinn Matthews and his escalating career resurface, all the lies she told herself and her husband, Alex, spiral down a destructive path that escalates her depression, alienates her from her closest friends, and lands her in the one place she was trying to avoid…Quinn’s new couch.

Love is messy.
Ignoring their connection is pointless. So is overlooking Quinn’s new lavish lifestyle, ripped entirely from her dreams. But when he plans a whirlwind holiday, Monica’s doubts about their possible future are outweighed by the fear of being alone with her depression. Unfortunately, escape isn’t as easy as a plane ticket. Neither is trust.
Forever is complicated.

Believing in a different result when plagued by past mistakes seems impossible. Even more so when her brain is wired to think the worst. Monica longs to believe in happiness but she doesn’t know how. What will it take for Quinn to prove that real love is unconditional? How can they build anything when she seeks adrenaline to numb her pain? Set during the hardest time of year to struggle with sadness, Monica must learn to forgive herself when happily ever after fails before she sabotages her own second act.

Luckily, hope is incurable.