Be My Light by Nia Arthurs

Dear Lucas, I’ll get straight to the point.
I need you to sleep with me.
It’s for a good cause.

Despite the horrors of my childhood, I’m fighting to move forward.
That means agreeing to Make It Marriage blind dates.
That means attending college parties where I clearly don’t belong.
That means getting over my trauma of being touched.
With the only man in the world who can touch me.
But Lucas is too good a teacher.
And these feelings are far too intense.
When our friends-with-benefits arrangement gets complicated, I’ve got one thing left to do.
Run as far from his love as my feet will take me.
Because I don’t want my darkness to taint Lucas too.