All My Nevers by Diana Nixon

Not all fairytales are bathed in magic. Some are dipped in tears, grief, and blood.
And mine? It was submerged in all of the above.
Three years ago, leaving San Fernando felt like the best way out of the mess I was neck-deep in. An addict to all things forbidden, I betrayed everyone I loved and watched my little sister pay for my sins with her life. An escape felt like a blessing, so I ran away and left the ashes of my past drift behind me.
This is why returning to my hometown was never on the menu.
Nor was falling in love with my childhood friend whose heart had been irreparably broken by yours truly.
But my father’s death turned out to be a twist I wasn’t expecting, and I had no choice but to come back home, face my demons, and head the family and what was left of my father’s business.
My new life was hell on earth. Everyone hated me.
And I…
I loved the only girl I knew would NEVER be mine.